I didn't really force him into a certain form or personality, so he had pretty much full creative direction. What probably happened was the easiest thing for him to do was to become a part of my brain I was desperately trying to get rid of: my "edginess"
At the very least, I was merely asking in order to check if any angst on Radon's part is likely to be due to age. It seems like that is a quite reasonable possibility.
well the personality of the tulpa isn't always the personality of the host, even if you're not angsty (and are an accurate enough self-evaluator to make that determination), your tulpa might be
Well thought. It’s best to keep in mind they are a separate entity that think for themselves aswell, and don’t necessarily have to be an interpretation of their host, or their attributes.
I mean, it can happen, but traits like that aren't the deep level stuff that sticks around
1:36 AM
not in my opinion, at least. What you have to look at is the deep underlying reasons for having a belief to really see the simliarities, for skin-deep purposes a tulpa can be 100% diffent in opinion
None of your traits will be impressed upon them unless you make it so. They are able to process their own emotions and put together their own opinions.
Beg to differ. In fact, I could draw ya a diagram of behaviors in both immediate and distant family in several- okay that's off topic. Tell me more about things that get passed on, please.
I think an opinion, when it comes to tulpa, derives from either "I am X" or "I was X", meaning that your tulpas being different largely revolves around either them being forced or having "deviated" as such that you say that your tulpa is (personality trait here) or that your tulpa has a background that makes them react a certain way.
even if you and all your family and all of your mind is mean, your tulpa will be "nice' because when thinking as tulpa, your brain will have been very trained to "think nice'
1:45 AM
what can't change is the underlying knowledge you have, or the experiences you have. You cannot, for example, know what it might mean for a person to "be nice because that's the way they were raised".
It makes sense, I'm just having trouble processing because it feels like what happens when you fill a microwave packed and try and make it do its job. Or when you open Ninety tabs of every program on a five year old computer.
The brain is comparable to a muscle - making a tulpa is training it to do something it doesn't typically do/to think in a way it doesn't typically think (or at least something it hasn't done/thought in the past). Thus, it is strained.
1:59 AM
A comparison in that way would be learning a new type of math which takes time to learn.
2:00 AM
Initially, before you are used to it, it can make your head hurt (as plenty of students can attest to).
2:00 AM
There are certainly other possibilities. If you have been using hte computer for awhile when you are making that push, you could simply be noticing that your head hurts more clearly than you were before paying more attention.
It takes time to learn new behavior - unlike a modern computer, which can simply run a new program with roughly the same efficiency as it can weeks later.
And while determination and dogmatic tenacity are valuable values and qualities, the common layman cannot attest to truthfully having them. And while I value this as a worthwhile endeavor to help put it into practice it's more than just having "skin in the game" so to speak.
2:04 AM
Maybe I should go look for some meditation guides. Something I'm admittedly bad at is sitting still so I've never "meditated" before in my life. Makes me drowsy
Jeez, it's like going back to my training. I cannot express my exasperated sigh in text but I suppose it's just another stack to the mountain of files. I hope Nin9 knows the lengths I'm going to for 'em.
Mmm I guess you cold see it that way. However, it's just pronounced as 9. Nine. Nein. The number and so their name is special to me. Special friend deserves a special name.
